Being this happy makes me ANXIOUS.

I love, Love, LOVE the feelings I first have when I'm dating someone--everything is rainbows and butterflies and unicorns and I feel like I'm floating on cloud 9. You enter into this magical realm of bliss where you and your significant other run through fields of flowers, holding hands all day everyday. What could be better?? He's perfect, she's perfect, you're perfect, everything is perfect. It's great! But it doesn't take too long before I realize that things may be too perfect and I start to internally panic, waiting for Godzilla to appear and reign terror on my beautiful, new relationship.

WAIT...

I think I hear him...

No, that was my imagination running wild again. To say the least, I get anxious when I'm too happy. This is REAL life we're talking about, people. Things aren't meant to be perfect and idealism is just an idea. At least that's what I tell myself right before I start conjuring up a list of everything that can and will go wrong in my relationship. You know you do it too! Before you know it, you're hacking into Facebook and email accounts, cracking iPhone and Android locked phone codes, and following them around like Sherlock Holmes trying to solve the mystery of why all hell hasn't broken lose with your close-to-perfect better half. (I say "better" because clearly you're insane if you're doing all of that extra stuff, which automatically makes them better.)

Why do I do this to myself?? Why do YOU do this to yourself? It's not that I don't want to be happy or that being happy upsets me. I think it's more of the fear of failure--adding another name to the list of relationships that have gone down in shambles because I [insert absurd idea about why you're not good enough here]. As I've gotten older, I've realized that I get anxious not so much because I'm waiting for things to go wrong, but I'm more so anxious to know whether or not that feeling is going to fade away. I'm a firm believer that if you're with the right person, despite the lows and the occasional arguments that every couple has, the highs will always be higher than your lows and happiness will always radiate from your face when you're with one another.

Don't be anxious for things to fall apart, but for the right things to fall into place.